Week 4 – Limits

For most of my life I have struggled with weight.  At one point, not that long ago, I was the better part of 80 pounds over what I should be. I’m still carrying far too much extra even now and achieving my ideal weight and fitness level is one of the tasks I will enjoy as a result of modifying my blueprint through the MKMMA.

As this has been my experience for so many years, it’s just one of those things I accepted as fact and kind of forgot about. A few years ago I was able to loose about 30 or 40 pound prior to a cruise we enjoyed with our oldest son and his girlfriend. We met up at the airport in Fort Lauderdale and Janae commented to Jordan that even though I was much lighter, was was still “walking big”. Interesting.

Through great effort (not really) I was able to find the weight I lost and put it right back where it was. Spring forward a few years and I found myself working in southern Alberta with a dear friend doing reno and construction. The change of environment and the physicality of the work just naturally help me to shed the weight again. It was on this round that I learned another important lesson.

Carrying this weight where I do caused bending over to pick things up off the floor challenging. Not impossible, but stuff just got in the way. Shoes were difficult to tie, somedays I’d have to kneel to pick up dropped tools or other items. Funny thing was, even as the weight dropped I maintained this posture to retrieve items from the floor. Until one day I discovered that the fight just wasn’t there. I could easily bend over and touch the floor. With a little effort and some tendon and hamstring stretching, I could get the palms of my hands flat on the floor.

I think we all sometimes carry limitations long after the cause, real or imagined, has long disappeared. Fear of over controlling parents, or bullies, hurt from past relationships, an accident, a fall, a bumpy ride in an airplane, the list goes on.

If you find yourself not attempting something when your head’s reminding you that you can’t or haven’t or shouldn’t try, take stock of where that voice is coming from and if the limits are really there. This old blueprint concept that has been offered during this MKMMA experience has really shed some light of a lot of things that likely we all deal with unnecessarily and to our great loss and limitation.

I encourage the reader as well as myself,  to just bend over or to push against whatever you think you can’t do. There are great discoveries to be made.

LT

Week 3 – The Song Remains the Same

At least so far.

The pushback has been brutal again this week. But I am winning the battle. Family flying in on Sunday afternoon punched me out of the webinar. Watched the replay. Outstanding!! Monday was Canadian Thanksgiving and I was on deck all day with setting up the house, cooking and such that severely limited my quiet time to get through the exercises. As has happened before, I’m in no way complaining, but rather recognizing how easy it is to go dark when things aren’t perfect or as you plan. The thing to do is to accept the bumps on the road, avoid them if possible the next run and get back on the track.

The whys are starting to show up for me. I’m beginning to understand more of what we’re doing, I think.  Very excited to continue.

Patience is not one of my strengths.  I’m committed to doing the reading and exercises as perfectly as I am able, not rushing or trying to jump ahead or over. I understand the value of scales and rudiments. Muscle memory. I think this is the same thing with the exception of this being a matter of these systems of the body and spirit are best served by relaxing and not applying brute force effort and sweat to the task. That won’t get it done.

I have just received my response on my latest edit on my DMP. Looking forward to seeing what has been offered by way of suggestions to adjust. Thank you Patty for your care.

A couple of more days to button up this weeks assignments and start another round on the weekend. Exciting stuff!

 

LT

Week 2 – Opposition in All Things

“It seems my “sub” has a devil put aside for me, for me, for meeeee…”(Thanks Freddy, Wayne and Garth…)

This has been a most interesting week. Pushback of one kind or another always seem to accompany growth. This is not a new, certainly not to me. But this has been crazy. Clearly, there is something afoot. Something of great value. Something that could possibly change a lot of lives, for the better. I would suggest there is a force, or an opposition, that will not take that kind of growth lying down and will use every subtle (and sometimes not so subtle) trick in the book to keep you stuck.

It started Sunday. First off,  Sunday, for us, is usually about a 4 hour experience with Church. Getting there, 3 hours of meetings, getting home. Church was different this week because of a bi-annual conference that is broadcast to local units over satellite. And it really didn’t affect me as I had volunteered to mix front of house audio for a benefit event in town. Not a usual Sunday activity, but it was an opportunity to visit with old friends and serve the community. That service caused me to miss the 4pm Webinar. Doesn’t matter that I cleared it with Mark. Doesn’t matter that I watched the replay. It just seems that I set the tone for the days to follow.

Ever have those days when time seems to compress and responsibilities and tasks just seem to expand at twice the rate?                             Stuck, stuck stuck. Please don’t get me wrong. I have not one bit of regret or complaint. I expected this. It’s what happens when we dare to challenge our old selves.

Focus is beginning to narrow. Understanding tickles the edges of confusion. A pathway is beginning to appear in the mist. I am becoming a new man with a new life.

Death, in any form, is alway difficult…

LT

Week 1 – Starting MKMMA

Finally starting to wrap my head around the material, getting the reading done, this blog site working and such. I also have the pleasure of helping a close friend get organized who is also on this amazing course.

Even with only a couple of days in, I am beginning to feel the stirring of some changes bubbling to the surface.  A few rough days earlier this week, but that should be of little surprise. Whenever there is the possibility of dragging yourself out of a mess, there always seems to be a  force – those frustrations and roadblocks and huge opportunities to fall back on old patterns – that will push back. Opposition in all things…

It’s been an interesting few months. Long before I was aware of this course, I had begun to discover some material on the weeb that I was quite excited to find. As a result of taking Mark J’s Go 90 Grow and being introduced to “The Hero’s Journey”, I discovered this funny little presentation – (I think this thing is just hilarious – Glove and Boots – too clever…)

Shortly after this, a TedTalk surfaced…

Pat Soloman directed Finding Joe which Mark has made a number of references to. I immediately purchased Finding Joe through iTunes and have watched it far too many times to admit to.

I also discovered another deeply inspiring movie called I Am (was on Netflix for quite a while. Still may be there).

After that, I ran into The Master Key document.

I do believe that the old adage that “when the student is ready, the teacher will appear” is in play here. I have had exposure to some wonderful material for many years and I have a firm belief in many of the principles and concepts. I find much of what has been presented by many of the personal development speakers over the years to be completely in harmony with the scriptures, which has always been a touchstone for me in my quest to understand why we do what we do.

Some old stuff to put down, some things to learn, some things I’ve known for years that I just need to find the way to lock it in and replace old programming.

I suppose, in a lot of ways, each of us in the process of being one character or another in our, or someone else’s Hero’s Journey.

Somethin’s coming… (west side story)